It seems that many people here in blogland have been having issues with posting and/or keeping up their blogs. I'm no different. Heck, I even missed my favorite SkyWatch Friday last week!
On the same note there are those that are keeping up daily (if not more) with their blog and their postings. Those are the ones I try to read every few days and comment on so they know I was there and I love them.
Personally, I'm letting life take over a little bit right now.
I'm not worrying about if/when/what/how I post. I'm not worrying about being on Twitter or Facebook (which I just hate!). I'm worried about making sure that life as we (me, hubs, 5 cats and 4 birds) know it.
Things are a little tight right now. Bills are piling up, creditors are starting to call on medical bills from earlier this year, seems our payments 'aren't enough to keep them from reporting us'. Great. But at this point. I kinda just don't give a shit. It will all work out.
Even then, I'm not over the top worrying freaking out like I used to. (Thank you meds and my awesome counselor!) I guess you can say, I'm finally letting go a bit and going with the flow. Accepting that there are things I just can't control or change no matter what. All I can do is change me.
I'm still having major issues sleeping, the CPAP is just not working as well as I had hoped and was anticipating. But as everything seems to be, it's a work in progress and I'll keep working on it. I'm still totally exhausted daily though.
I'm trying to relax more and just kinda stop and 'smell the roses'. I noticed that I try to rush and do too many things at once that stress me out more then anything. If I take a step back, and prioritize for real, that mess of mail on the kitchen table isn't so bad. The dishes in the sink, eh, they'll make it to the dishwasher eventually. Laundry.. pppphhhttt.. it's not going anywhere.
I feel like in some ways I'm just giving up. But not in a bad way, in a way that is healthy and better for my personal well being.
I'm leaving next week for Florida to go to Avitween. I am looking forward to it. Excited a little even. Seems the neurotic me is ok with this trip and the people I will be seeing and the things I'll be doing. Seems strange to me, but hey, that's what it is! Surprises me personally, usually by now I'd be thinking how to get out of it and not go, but I'm not. I'm not having anxiety attacks or panic attacks over the upcoming weekend either. (hopefully I won't!)
I'm ok with it all. And I like that. And I'm good with that. For a change.
Now all I need is a XXL white trash bag. Anyone have one? Seriously.
And Hulk Hands, I really need Hulk Hands (but that's not for the party).
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
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7 gimme your words here:
I keep thinking that I'll stop with the daily grind and blog only when I feel like it... but always end up posting every day anyway. I guess after all these years it's just become a force of habit.
I am so very proud of you ... I sit here and I read this post and remember how you were sounding last year at this time .. you've come a long way. I wonder if your expectations of how the CPAP would solve your sleeping issues was too high .. maybe it is something that takes a while ... OTOH what do I know about CPAPs .. ignore me .. xoxo
Hey, don't worry about how frequently you post, just take life as fast or as slow as you like.
I'm glad you are finding some peace - a more relaxed outlook on life. That makes me very happy for you :)
Zen is good. And yeah, since getting the job I'm just too friggin beat to blog daily. That and my 1-2 comments don't really feed my comment crack addiction very well.
You flow all ya can, baby!
strange info alert:
I have a hard time breathing sometimes. I was at this event and felt like "Wow, my nasal passages are CAVERNS, I'm Breathing!" I looked around and saw a display of Himmalayan salt lamps. (Told you this was srange). My intuition told me that that was what was doing it. I haven;t bought one yet, but I opened all the Hawaiian Salt (Special mineral salt - very elemental and good for you) and put it around the boat. You guessed it: I'm breathing great!
So I'm getting a lamp, or just some himalayan or Andes salt (they both have reputed healing properties). I put the open plastic bag on top of the cable box because it keeps it warm, dry and seems to diffuse it around. Kosher salt? Who knows! I do know that Kahuna use salt water for blessings...then there's Silvia Brown.......
Yeah, the blogosphere can take over your life. I WILL post daily (goddess willing) but don't always get around as much as I want. The guilt, oh the GUILT!!! I always go to Daryl though, because her publicity says shes "mean" or something.......
thaks for your visits,
Aloha, Friend!
Comfort Spiral
Aloha, Friend!
Comfort Spiral
I post whenever the mood strikes. Or when I have time. My friends are there for me no matter how often (or little) I post.
Good for you for putting your life first. That's something that I find hard to do. I tend to put everything else ahead of me.
Have fun at Avitaween. Last year was awesome. I won't be able to make it this year...so have one or two drinks for me :)
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